Why do I just get pushed aside by everyone I like as if I don’t exist in that aspect of life? I love not like love two girls more then anything in this world and they both know it. I talk to them everyday and I am both their best friends. I would go out of my way to do anything for them. Personally I try to act strong for them and stand up to help them but a person can only be so strong.

Personally I do not know what about these two girls I love so much. I love different things about them but equally. I know at this age you aren’t supposed to know who you want to spend the rest of your life with but they make me feel like I do. Both of these girls have liked me at one point and still do deep down, but for some reason find reasons not to be with me. It is enough to make me happy as I ever can be all day then when I get home I cuddle in a corner and cry. Cry to release how I am wasting my life chasing after two people that will never be with me.

I try to tell them both how I feel everyday but I cannot. I tell them that I love them and I tell them that I will always be there when they need me, but that is a best friend. Nothing ever sets in as me actually in love. No one really understands how I truly feel about them and I am guessing they will never see it!! Or care!