Rant!!!

When life hits you in the back what do you do? Do you feel like falling down, or do you want to stand up and fight back? Life is hard work and was never meant to be easy. Friends come and go, family is always there, and all that we work for will pay off in the end.

Yeah that is a joke. I am 17 and I have been kicked out of my house and have my own apartment already. I am not even a bad kid, my mom and I just do not get along. So my family is out. All my friends date each other and then brake up but still stay friends. How come this can never happen to me? Every person I have dated leaves, I dated a person named Kim. We dated for almost two years and when we broke up we stopped talking and rarely talk now. One person I dated moved out of the state, not because of me but I do not talk to her. My final and last girlfriend before mine now, Maggie hates me and now we can not even hold a conversation without fighting so we just do not even talk. I currently have a girlfriend and I love to talk to her. I really do not have them feelings for her but I need her in my life as a friend for someone to understand me and to talk to me. I tried braking up with her but we didn’t talk so I fixed that.

Choices are very difficult in now day life. I have been told that you do not need a girl to determine yourself. I really believe this is true but I also need someone to talk to and to understand everything I have to talk about. There are currently two people that I can do that with right now. Ali and my current girl friend, with this on your plate what would you do?

All I realize is that friends right now are the most important and love is second best. But I am getting old and I am scared to be alone my whole life. The fact of the matter is I’m screwed; only a few people like me and can stand me. So I believe the army is a good choice for me. I do not care what people think about it. They all say oh you’re stupid for doing that, or that army is taking you away from me. I have nothing left in my life and the army is the only thing that makes it worth it. I am not being suicidal by far I am not but I really am doing nothing with my life so if I am going to die, like everyone on this planet does. Why not make it fighting for my country with honor.

Pvt Nathan LaVern Nichols

Thank you all who have been threw the ruff with me, but it time to let the bird develop and fly away.