Working hard for nothing ..

What would you do if everything you have worked for ended right in front of your eyes?

I had that question running threw my mind all night. Something happened and I do not know how to react. All I know what to do is cry, is this normal?

It was the beginning of January and it was still snowing. In fact it was a very icy snow storm out side. We were driving home from a family member’s house. I was driving one car with my parents, and my girl friend was riding in one with her parents.

Suddenly the car in front of them slid out of control and they couldn’t get out of the way in time, they smashed into then and 12 more cars hit them.

I swerved and ditched the car and only got it stuck, I was lucky. I got out of the car and ran as fast as I could to her car. The car blew up blowing me backwards in a very fast manner. I hit my head and gently got knocked out for a few seconds. As I recovered I started bawling.

It just struck me as one of those moments that you realize everything good about the relationship, just to make me feel worse. My first kiss with her, which was that morning, All I have worked for in my relationship ended suddenly that night all in minutes.

Five painful and slow years passed and I was ready to move on. I wouldn’t drive in the snow for five years, or even a car if that. I wanted to move on and get my life moving again. I couldn’t just set aside my life because of a girlfriend that had died. I understand this is harsh but five years of life taken away when she would want me to move on is plenty of time. I started talking to all of my friends from high school again. Even this one girl I liked. She was my best friend in everything I did. I told her everything and still hung out with her even threw all of the last five years. I liked her when I was with Sarah, but this is girl I could never get over. She makes fun of me, with me. She has the world’s most amazing eyes. I get lost, and Struggle to find my way out. She has an amazing body and the most important her personality. It is the only one I would spend the rest of my life with, NOW! She drives me crazy some days that I don’t want to be around her. Then others where I can leave her side.

Finally after so long of being best friends I told her how I felt about her. She told me that she felt the same way but couldn’t be with me because I am three years older then her. From that day on I accepted that fact; of course I still liked her and tried my hardest to keep friends.

My main obstacle was her parents. They liked me one day then hated me the next, I think my dog was more consistent on this kind of thing. But in the end I won there approval.

I finally graduated and went off to basic training. When I had gotten back I asked her to marry me! Knowing I was going to Iraq she told me when I returned alive she would tell me her answer.

My best friend Adam and I were deployed and stationed at the same base. One day we were walking to the chow hall and a crazy van barricaded the gate and was heading straight toward Adam and me. I quickly threw Adam out of the way and took the hit from the van, and the explosion tore off my legs and part of my face. Adam rushed over to me and was yelling for medic. Adam was one himself and was trying everything he could. I told him that I had a file on my laptop and that the password was Alison. I told him to find it and do what it says. Adam relied anything Nathan anything, just hold on, you will be fine.

I told Adam I worked so hard for this country and nothing right ever happens for me. This is best.

“He died right then” announced Adam at the debriefing in America. Adam took out his mission and became Special Forces. He found the instructor of the attack that killed me and put a bullet in his head.

“I couldn’t come to myself to stay in after all that he told me, I am dropping out of the army and opening this file Nathan told me to.”

Alison and I got married as request by Nathan and now we are living happily ever after!!!