Love!

Love, it is a word we all hear everyday. I love you; I love to spend time with you. I love it all. We overly use the world love and many people don’t realize it. My name is Haden Rockaweller and I really believed I was in love until one night when my whole life came crashing down.

I am 19 years old and I have been threw more in the last week then you have been in your whole life. I believe I should go back to the begging and tell you how things really are. Daphne and I we so happy together, always spending time with each other and inseparable. We had been dating for almost 2 amazing years. One night on the 13 of March she called me and informed me that we were done and she didn’t know how I could do something like that. She hung the phone up and shut it off. I tried returning her call and nothing.

I waited until the next day and tried calling her then, nothing! I did not know what was going on, I made a mistake I don’t remember making. Finally after a week of no contact with her I attempted to go to her house. She was not their, her parents said she was out with a couple friends at the mall. In desperation I drove to the mall and walked on the most heart crushing thing I have ever seen in my life. I turned and ran as hard as I could until I reached my car.

In a rant of being upset I drove very fast in weather conditions that you shouldn’t drive very fast it. All I was thinking was Daphne, Daphne, and Daphne... How could I lose the one and only person I have ever loved? Life wasn’t worth living I thought and right then when those thoughts came into my head everything went black and my life turned upside down. The car hydroplaned and clipped the side of a bridge. The car flipping threw the air like a professional acrobat and finally subsiding on a tree about 20 feet below.

A bright light shining in my eyes, the pain, were was it coming from. Was I dead? Were I? Every question rushed threw my head as a voice that appeared to be coming from no were rumbled the ground making it very difficult to stand. “God, I confusingly asked”. “Yes child, this is God babbled the grand voice. “ NO I am just kidding, yelled the voice. Right then a man walked out.

“Boy now why did you go and do something stupid like that and try killing your self?” asked the man. I replied with my same old self “Because I love her with all my heart and I can’t change it, so I would rather be dead. “Why does it matter to you anyways, and who are you?” I yelled at him in a prissy voice. “Because I care about you, Don’t you remember what I had told you before; love isn’t something you think you have to feel it in your heart and no person makes the love” “It is something you generate over time to your own life” “ love doesn’t really happen” He went on.

“Would you really like to die?” He asked. I replied in with tears filling my face “Yes I love her so much, I just want her back and if I can then take my life” “Ok Haden if that is how you feel then your wish is granted” and right then the light darkened and fire arose and my life turned to hell, literally!

People were pushing me and shoving me. Telling me to get to my hole and work, I wanted to cry right then. I thought when I died I didn’t remember it. My life is supposed to be over. Why is this happening? STOP, STOP. “I WANT TO LIVE” I yelled at the top of my lungs. “Haden your awake” cried my mom. I asked worriedly what had happened. She told me that I had totaled my car and that tree had shattered my ribs. The doctor informed me that I was so lucky to be alive and the big man upstairs was on my side.

You don’t even know, I replied. Everyone asked me why I did what I did! Finally after I was out of the hospital I told them that I had seen Daphne get hit by a truck and be killed. My mom Said she had been and that her parents were the drivers. The brakes had failed and they couldn’t stop. At that moment I started balling and shut my self down. I couldn’t handle that again. The picture of that kept running threw my head and it horrified me the rest of that night.

Finally after Three I got to sleep. The man came into my dream again and asked if I wanted it all to stop and to go back to the way it was. I dropped to my knees and begged for it to. I said Haden I like you and you are an amazing kid, now make the right choice this time, and decide if you are ready for love yet! I awoke and I was in my room.

The surgery marks were gone and I had 12 missed calls from Daphne. I called back and she answered, at that moment I cried again. She asked why I was crying. I told her to come over and I would tell her.

She arrived about 20 minutes later. When I seen her I grabbed her in my arms and kissed her, told her that I loved her more then anything in the world, and I had to brake up with her. She started balling and ran out. Three days later when I called she was home in her room still crying. She never went to the mall so she never got hit. I told her parents about my dream and they got the truck looked at. Someone had cut the brake lines.

To this day I still don’t say I love you to anyone anymore. There is only one person I will ever say it to if I stumble on him again. That is that man that helped me. I don’t know if he was god or not, but he was real and he gave me a chance to save two people. Daphne and I got married this morning, and I finally found someone I truly love with all my heart and I would give my life, literally to save theirs.