Hello and Goodbye........

So I am Glad that I leave on the 31st of July! I will miss all of you don’t get me wrong, but this town and some of the people in it are enough. I just built a computer for a close friend I know and it took me almost 6 hours. The cool thing is…. It felt like two. I know now that computers are defiantly something I want to do for the rest of my life. I want to leave and get to basic and AIT so I can get to playing with computers, keep working harder to get all I can in my mind so I can graduate top of my class and get paid amazing money. I do not know what I am going to do bout my relationship wise. I have been fighting for someone for almost 5 years now and I don’t want to hurt her when I leave. No one wants to hear it but there is a chance I could not come back, and were would I be left then. I am sorry everyone I love you all as friends and maybe two more then others but my love is gone. I am backing down and keeping away from relationships as I can. Work, Softball and sleep until I leave! Good plan!!!!!!

I AM SORRY!

Girlfriends come and go! Parents and Family are always there. Were does this put all the other friends you make in school and in your life time. I am going to skip to the chase on this one and not play the changing the name game. Alison is by far my best friend on this planet. She knows the most about me and even know I am a jerk to her sometimes she would go out of her way to do things for me if it had to be done. Ali is amazing; she is smart, beautiful and very easy to talk to. All of you who are friends with her know what I am talking about. You guys are so lucky to have her as a friend. I know I have been blinded by some stupid stuff lately with who she is involved with. I truly do not like this guy. I do not know if it is because of how I feel about her or if it is really him. I cover up to Ali by telling her I am in love with her when I really don't even know what is going on. I have been a total jerk to her ever sense she told me how she felt about him and I do know a big part of it is jealousy. When you are close to someone like I am to Ali friend and love get mixed up real easy, isn't that really what being best friends is? Caring so much for them that you would do anything, All I am saying in this whole rant is in fighting story's get mixed up between people to make the person telling them look better. It is human nature and everyone does it. I want everyone to know that this isn't Ali's fault or mine. It is both, and someone has to fix it or an amazing friendship will be lost. Alison I am sorry for being suck a jerk to you about Jeremiah and everything else. A true friend will be there no matter what, and I guess I let jealousy get in the way.

Please everyone do not let stupid little things such as boyfriends or girlfriends change you! A friendship is as deep as you want to make it and it will NEVER fail.... Until someone gives up!

Friends!

What do you say a best friend is? A person who goes out of their way to do anything for the other person. A person who will stand up for them, and stand by them. That is what I thought it was too! My Friend and I have been friends for little longer then a year now. We used to spend like every moment together just talking about stupid stuff and just plainly having fun. Then she started dating my best friend and I got pissed at both of them. I didn't talk to either of them for almost a month. It wasn't that she was dating him that made me upset it was that I had fallen for her big time and my guy friend knew that! People say I am obsessive and blah blah but they play it off a lot. They call me up in the morning to do stuff for them. ask to give them rides everywhere, help with there computers basically everything were I have to be nice. Then they go and tell their friends that he did this on his own and do you see how obsessive he is! Well this is done! My friendship with her is done! I am sick of always being pushed till last for everything. I am tired of stories getting flipped around! I am sick of it all! Friends are supposed to be there help comfert and make the other friend feel better but she has done opposite of that! My friendship from here on out is done unless she truly changes!